Ta!
Taking a risk tonight. A colleague is having a party - complete with surf simulator and adult sized bouncy castle. The weather is hot and sunny. My gut instinct is that I really want to go and have some fun, BUT just going is a trigger. I want to have a drink like everyone else too, BUT I know if I do, I will have to stay, as I don't dare drive even after only one drink cos of the meds.

I just want to be normal for one night, BUT just the thought of going out makes me feel anxious. I am taking the dog with me, which helps.

I have just read what I have typed (corrected typos - has to be done) and noticed all the "buts". PTSD is a real pain in the but!

I'm going to go and attempt to enjoy myself. I just hope I don't regret it. Catch you all tomorrow.