Stayed awake all night long. Got my children off to school. Napped today for 1 1/2 hr. Adjusted the entire day to consider a very sleepy mommy. Friend rang, and rang and rang to wake me, as I had asked, that I might arrive to pick up children from school. Changed the plan after waking and quickly enrolled kids, for the day-til 5pm in after school prog.

No outbursts of tension and frustr. lately from husb. which is making life oh' so very hopeful. Kids have been saying a great deal in the last couple days, all sorts of SWEET, SWEET things. (not being sarcastic) for Real.

One change I've really noticed a great deal in the last month, is that I'm more loving, dealing a lot less with bouts of overwhelming stress, frustr. and anger. Husb.'s more supportive, I'm easier to get along with. As a family we're overall more hopeful and loving. These are some of the things, keeping me willing, despite how painful' this crap' can all get.

Husb. about to watch "Flags of Our Fathers," ...about Iwogima during World War II, and I may soon join him. We are both 2days away from a cigg....always trying to succeed once again keeping cigg's down ..did it once for 2 1/2 yrs.