That represents two things....how I feel and the shit that comes out of the hubby's mouth on a daily basis. :crybaby: Funny today he came up with the term emotionally abusive....he admitted he was and then it was followed by a shrug,,,that is just how he is. It was just weird that he labeled himself and I have never said those words out loud. I have started counseling but I'm not liking it much and I think I'll quit....I see a regular doc on Friday...may try antidepressents again. Didn't want to but now all I know is I can't continue feeling like I do....I have thoughts of checking out permanently. I won't because of my kids but everything hurts so much right now. I talked about going back to the VA and the PTSD which he definitely admits he has but still won't do anything about it. Ugh help me.