You just described my wife. I fell in love with her 8 years ago and im willing, wanting to support her through this shit. She and i came on the forum a short time ago. But she has probably had PTSD for some time. I love her with all my heart. We had along talk last night. She says shes not goin anywhere.....yet. Shes numb, bitter, resentful, because of my kids, the problems with her kids, my alcohol problem, my guilt for my kids flows over onto her.

I didnt know alcohol that once the alcohol was out of your system it still had a left over affect. The next day - guess i should have known that. Since i quit a few weeks ago and all of this stuff has been goin on Im getting more and more depressed. I take responsibility alot maybe even for things that are out of my control.
After last night though this is the most depressed ive been in a long time. Ive got relationship issues being a door mat. Now i feel runner up in what i thought was my last and great marrage. i feel like ive failed and third times the charm or three strikes your out. I cant stand to see another on of my children go through a broken home. I mentioned to one of my co worker today i feel like nibblen on a the end of a gack. Im hurtin i hurt my kids and i cant do it again and live with myself. God life can be soooo ****ed up. I want to support her. But sometimes it hurts soo bad. Doesnt help im getting over the flu and ive had 2 hours of sleep.
Anthony I understand the cup theory. Or maybe i dont. So if one cup in your life runnith over in one area with PTSD. It shits all over everyother aspect of your life?