Pretty darn good with nothing to complain about. Did get minimally triggered earlier, but apparently responded constructively as I felt much better afterwards and my anxieties didn't skyrocket like I feared they might.

Do have so much more progress to make and will do my best to discipline self, while accepting this roller-coaster ride. I'll tell you though, though quite painful and crippling at times, I just love coming up with a new personal freedom every time. If I had to wait mo. or yrs. to see a single reward, I guess I'd have to still do it, bc what choices am I really left with at this point.

Hanging in.....hanging out....and hoping we have the money for my next retreat on Feb. 23rd. I've asked for it as a B'day present, as I turn 40 soon.

Found myself being silly and thinking earlier, that if I was visiting Australia, I could turn 40, then hop on a plain, fly back home and be 39 again. This time difference can still boggle my mind.

My mother always use to claim she was 39 and holding. Guess that makes her 39 and holding onto many another yr. Her B'day's tommorrow and hoping I can do something for her, if not only to call and wish her a Happy Birthday. Though so much surrounding her hurts a great deal, there's something about getting old and being defeated by the inevitable age process that sometimes causes us to surrender and soften if even only a tiny bit. Sometimes when she's not yet said a word, I look at her, and feel compassion.