Yer, the problem with that though, is that some trauma's just can't be healed. I have seen and done enough things to know they will always be in the back of my mind, and occassionally come out to play. The PTSD course I did dealt really well with controlling ourselves when trauma's come out to play, which does really help if one applies the principles. Sometimes with my PTSD though, everything does get quite hard, and only one with PTSD could even begin to understand what it is like. I am ok most of the time if not put near any stress, but as soon as I am stressed or pressured, then I turn to the dark side. I guess it is my past that automatically kicks in, or instinctively as a better word, to deal with things there and then, which generally aren't appropriate out of a war zone.

I think the key to PTSD is to know how to manage it when symptoms get too much for me. It is working, along with medication. Worst is an understatement honestly, as I wouldn't wish this upon even my worst enemies.