You know, Veiled, I bet that your body is reacting to your current situations the same way that your body reacted during the assults. I'm sure there were words in your mind during your traumas that you would like to say, but didn't. I'm sure you were trying to stay in control even when the situation was not in your control. That feeling of restraint and control now triggers the same reaction now in the present. I can only explain what might be happening, but I'm really at a loss how to proceed. I hope with time, your symptoms will get better. I think if you get to the root of all the triggers, the traumas, then you symptoms will heal.

Tell him not to yell. I know that is easy to say and hard to do, but he needs to try. You can handle only so many triggers in a given period. My hub is a yeller too. And we have adopted the whisper discipline tactic. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. When a situation like that escalates, is there a way out for you? Can you take a walk? Do you have your own space where you can close the door, put headphones on and listen to music? You might need to make a space.

Feel as in you don't fit the diagnosis, or you don't have the same emotions as other ptsd sufferers? Emotions at different points in your journey will vary greatly from time to time. Sometimes you'll feel denial, other times, you might feel angry, sad, frustrated, scared, etc.

You have so much going on in your life! Just hang on, it's going to be a ride. Stay with therapy, don't quit your meds (if you are on any) without doctor's notice, and be good to yourself. I know as a mom, the last one is hard. Sometimes it's hard to get just one hour to yourself to do something that you truly enjoy. You've got to make that time.

Just keep typing and venting, veiled, it will get better.