Ugh long night last night. Was able to crash but as usual at the 3 hour point I came flying off the sofa and my husband looked at me and asked what is it with you and a few hours sleep? I always wake in the panic again. So body wiped out but mind going way too fast. Feel like I am hitting where I did before which pisses me off, I had stopped panicking at night and it has just come back and no recall of what I may be dreaming.

I was looking at pictures of my son and a poem that is printed on one photo and I cried. I am missing him so much but he will be here on the 9th. I was very upset his flight was canceled last month and missed his birthday he was to be here for. Debated calling my teen girl as I was think as fried as I was last night could she really make it worse? Decided every time I think that way it does.

At least I was able to go to bed late this morning and got a few more hours.