I would think that also Piglet, in that there would be more gained by the relaxation that not going, however; I have been in these situations myself, and exactly stressed as you are now, and when I thought about them, they where causing me stress, but when I got out and about onto what was distressing me thought wise, I enjoyed myself immensly and calmed myself down. When I looked back upon it, I was actually thinking about silly things, but important things when PTSD is not controlled, being... just having to attend, having certain timelines imposed upon me to achieve things, etc etc, all of which I worried about, but enjoyed so much. Basically, I was over thinking the event, an event that was actually more positive for me than negative.

That might not be it then, and as you say, could just be the straw that broke the camels back, with all the other current issues you have with your work. Honestly piglet, a toilet roll being around the wrong way is enough to set us off when we are already under stress from other issues. This could just be that, and very possibly not a significant issue for you to worry about analyzing, more just an observation from my view point.

I understand you with the work problems, as I was stressed immensly when running my own marketing business, and having dead lines to meet client expectations, etc etc. Huge stress, and such the slightest things set me off or collapsed me. And here I am now, wound up the marketing company and retired, because the stress was far to great for me to handle with my PTSD, even today, I cannot deal with "clients", ie. someone where money is concerned, so I just don't. No longer is the toilet roll being around the wrong way an issue for me, as my emotional tank and stress cup now has significantly more room to handle normal everyday stressors.