Hope everyone is doing well. I think I am doing better today. No Y&A, I ceased cutting my meds until I am at least under some doctor's supervision. When I had taken the last step off all symptoms came back with such gusto I could not function and would have ended up just adding to my hospital bills. It was like I was where I was when it all started so I am doing well in regards to getting my dose to a tiny faction of what I once was on and take 1/4 of what the docs wanted me to stay on.

Go figure my symptoms going haywire... errr it was PMS. I always get PTSD turned inside out during that phase. Bad enough last night I drank a couple beers and my original dose of 3mg before the cuts instead of the 1/4mg I normally take now. I slept very well and it was a nice break. Much needed down time but still groggy today.

So nope xanax is the only med I take. I had to get off all the others as they made me worse. I am looking into something to help me wean the rest of the way off that won't be addicting.

And silly shit said in the sleep... Wasn't me but hubs. I had a major cramp in my shoulder blade driving me nuts before the pill kicked in and put me to sleep. I semi woke hubs and asked him if he would please work on the knot as I cannot reach it. He said he will pull it in a minute. I asked pull what??? He said the TV. So I gave up LOL.

My extra stress, I need to call and set up a vet visit for my dog. I can look online and see if I can get it overnighted as I know the meds she needs, but I am a bit freaked out as I will have to be the one to take her to the vet. trying to control a damn near 100lb dog and 3 yo... which is harder? And all the what ifs hit me as what if more is wrong? She is so damn old... Scared to take her.