Piglet, I know I have no advice to offer as I am trying to figure out this mess and sort it out, it is hard I do know that. But I do know when I read Anthony's posts they seem to make sense for me. I hope you feel better and bring yourself to do the trip. My heart goes out to you.

And IMO which may be worth squat, a relationship with your dog is a relationship and gives much comfort towards healing. I thought it was sweet when I read about the dog knowing what cuddles means... I will let you be now piglet.