I do have a similiar story g-girl...18 years of physical..sexual..emotional[mental?] during the years of 2 until 20....then I married an abusive guy....I got out of that relationship after 11 years...and I did it more for my son[then 10]...my now ex shoved my kid [he was ours--I raised him alone from 10 years on---plus I was there for him to fill in the gaps when his dad threw up his hands and stated that he could not be a father] I called my FOO members and told them to get me an apartment as I was going to move out the next AM and I did!....I can really sense your pain!!!! I do have a gentle spirit to listen to you...Please feel free to contact me any time!!! .........wildfirewildone