Thanks folks for your replies and so quick! Do you ever get to find time to sleep? It's good to know there are people out there who understand and are willing to help folks like me. I can't get to the bottom of PTSD intellectually...and as well-meaning people can be, if you've not been there, its hard for them to understand. I am emotionally dead at present but my wife is so understanding. I'm not the guy pre the trauma. I can't do things I used to do easily ..play music/ performance..couldn't stand in front of people for the life of me..would fall apart. There's some part of my trauma that has robbed that from me...I want it back one day..my confidence ,strength and understanding. But I often can't recognise the triggers that send me into anxiety and depression with all their physical aspects. Do you guys experience that too? alan.