i feel the same way, bec. i was so afraid i'd hurt my kids, but after the first one (very strong willed) i knew that it wasn't going to be an issue if i didn't want to kill him, lol. i have 3 wonderful, well adjusted children that have never been exposed to any of the things i had to learn. looking forward to grandchildren in a couple yrs. maybe! my husband has always been my "knight in shining armor." kind and gentle, and very supportive with this ptsd mess, though it was a bit of a slow start for him.
cathy