I just woke up a bit before noon...it seems to take me at least 15 minutes or so to focus on just what is reality at the moment...I had wanted to get out yesterday afternoon since it had cooled down substantially from the past few days of intense heat...I wanted to get out and shoot a bunch of pics and to visit the horses at the stables in the park [20 minutes away] I love to visit...fears were just sooooo overwhelming!!! I need to get out and go to the grocery store...out of fresh salad greens...fresh fruit....yogurt[I freeze some and then I have it like ice cream...m-m-m-m=low carb treat!] As soon as I focused this noon I was totally into my present FEAR cycle...I am pleased though in getting a good 8 hrs of sleep which hasn't happened in ages!!! Seems like the past few days the FEAR has been rooting into all my activities....like now...I "have to" put front wheels on shopping cart before I go out....I "can't" shower/dress[afraid of what?]...maybe that means I'll then have to face my FEAR and leave my "safe" apt. and get on with Life... I will do deep breathing...manage FEAR...get on with my daily routine....do Life....off I goooooooooooooooo........