Marilyn:

this process is not and will not make you feel good or all fuzzy inside. Its going to dreg up all those feelings, so that you can work through them. It's the only way to get better. You have to face what was done to you, how you felt and feel, admit it, accept it and then work through it. This is the healing process.

Everytime you write about a trauma and start digging at your feelings, your going to crash with your symptoms, and then you get up and you do it again and each time your symptoms should get a little less as you go. It can take a looong time. This is no quick fix.

I was waiting for this aspect to hit you actually, as many of your posts were very bubbly(not in this thread, but in others). It's a good sign that your journey to healing is starting. I know that sounds backwards, but that is how it works for us.

Keep at it. If you need to crash, crash for a few days then come back and start up again. Your doing a great job! Try to keep in mind that all the feelings coming back and a worsening of symptoms is normal and expected.

Bec