Kerrie-Ann,

The longest journey is the journey within and yours has been one of high emotion with all it's mountains and valleys. Quick to speak and act and get involved, you may seek strength by trying to control both what gives you pleasure and pain. It is when emotional turbulence and undercurrents within are not perceived that the outer world may appear safe and secure because we want it to be so. Logic tells us so, hidden emotion reveals it is not. Trust when getting close to others has been displaced by fear of being controlled by others.

What is the ultimate control but to give one's heart away to another for no one can do that but ourselves. The most priceless treasure kept in a gilded cage is still a prisoner within no matter what the surroundings or present company. Our castle may appear solid and secure but it is a cold fortress if love is not within and the home fires are no longer burning. Passion takes in a moment, love gives forever. They are not the same.

Can others truly be blamed for raging emotion within? That path to inner peace begins by dusting ourselves off and looking in on that longest journey. Honesty is vital especially when trust is lost and all the words in the world cannot describe an emotional world that is felt, not spoken, not healed.

Painful awareness is known to you in relationships which may have seemed close but have been distant in what love demands of us, to love, to trust, and to be loved. We may seek another, but to truly know anyone we must first know ourselves.