You feel confused about life, likely due to it being so difficult for you at present. Your not trusting within intimacy, though do enjoy taking your time and find enjoyment when within an intimate relationship. You certainly do see though that sex is fun, but has its price. You demonstrate an innocent idealism, naivety even regarding your support systems, believing they are good / have been good, or atleast so you want others to think, though is certainly reflective towards your poor self esteem. You have been depreciated in commitment, victimized for a better term, though show no commitment towards anyone or anything other than current commitments. You keep your feelings very much inside you, guarded even, likely due to feeling vunerable releasing them, scared even, which you struggle to see past for the future getting better at this time.