You feel confused in life, focused on one aspect even without looking at the broader picture of life itself. You have been hurt by a male within intimacy, hence why you are not trusting within intimate relationships and stagnation exists within sexual relations, due to being victimized in this manner. You are possibly naive, definately confused about your support systems within life. They have been poor, thus your poor self esteem as a result. You want commitment, though with trust issues you feel a little naive in this manner, feeling chipped away at for a better term regarding past commitment. You feel hopelessness at present, a fear even of your world crumbling to a lower level of existence, frightened by the danger of falling into a painful and perhaps life threatning situation. You can see that a future may exist, though it comes with more uphill battles.