You hit it pretty close. I am often confused and always sad, although I am a master at feigning "happy". I am not trusting within or without intimacy. Intimacy is stagnant, and yes I am very aware and sadly don't want that to change, I am quite content with that. I have always had "me" as my support system, however no one taught me how, so I do the best to support me as I can. I am very commited to my children and my pets. I sadly have a very hard time with a true commitment to anyone else, I can like a person so very much, but they hurt me once and I turn off all emotion and can never regain any towards them. It is not a grudge, I just make them vanish from my world other than necessary communication if I work with them. Family, I am civil. I do not succumb to peer pressure, in fact I am rather eccentric and definately am set in my own special ways, and again I am eccentric. I really don't care what people think. Except with my two main jobs, Motherhood and where ever I work, I want to be the best at both. Very Pessimistic and scared to death. That is the truth. Nothing strikes a nerve. But it all strikes a cord. However, I will say I value commitment and respect highly, you are correct there. I remember being in a beauty parlor at about 14 y.o. and seeing this little old man help his obvious wife put her coat on and hold hands going to the door. He gave her a kiss and opened the door for her. They looked 90 by God. I was touched and have never forgotten, that is commitment.