Veiled are you still going to that same Doc then?

I know what you are talking about not wanting to be "addicted"
After my accident I numbed my pain with Tylonel 4's.
Fortunatly I noticed when my monthly dose of 90 pills was barely lasting a week.
And somehow I managed to wean myself off of those
(privately of course... I was to embarressed to mention it to anyone)

Since that moment... it has taken the convincing of many Doctors,
psychologists, psychiatrists and family members,
(and the threat of hospitalization)
for me to finally give in and start taking "daily medication"

My psychiatrist understands how I feel about taking meds,
and before any changes are made... the information I need is provided.
Nothing is forced.
I feel comfertable with this.

I don't feel comfortable with the thought that I am "addicted" to any medication.
(although technically I am!)
But instead of fighting it, I decided to test it out.
Nothing else I was doing was working... so I didn't have anything else to lose.

It's been 7 months (OMG!) since I started my first meds...
... and my days have finally become more stable.

If you need them, you need them.
But they aren't supposed to be used as a "band-aid"

You need to be in therapy to deal with your issues,
medication should only be used if needed.
And most definatly not as the only PTSD tool you have.

You need a doctor that understands you and is willing to listen.
When you feel as though you are being heard, and the Doctor actually cares...
it makes a HUGE difference!

Good luck!