That is why I see my CBT every week, he cares and gets me. I get relaxed with him, he is so good at it! I get out there every week! He has helped a lot, as also educating myself, and to help get a grip on panic attacks I listen to Claire Weekes audio I downloaded (for free yeah) to relax and go into the attack, not fight. Her works are a bit dated but I get it and she has that soothing voice and accent... I fall asleep listening to her.

I have to go to this shrink, husband put his foot down on it and that is something he never does. I have to give in with him at some point and he makes sure he is with me during the session so I am heard. I pretty much always get my way with him so I don't want to fight with him over it. He supported me with her when I refused to go over 50 mg zoloft. So it is there. He did insist I take at least that while I come off xanax. I used to be on a lot higher dose of zoloft before years ago and coming off wasn't hard for me. Once the xanax is gone so will go the zoloft next and I hope to be able to cope and live again by changing my way of thinking.

He is there for me so I have to give him that, besides I raise enough hell at home and he sees most my way all he has to do is tell her for me. Since she does not listen to it coming out of my mouth.