18 hours: yes it goes on and on, I think I do this myself b/c of the yelling, screaming I keep myself in that state, keeping up the high adrenaline levels. I don't remember how it stopped. Now it is b/c of exhaustion but then? Maybe b/c I finally got someone on the phone who could break the circle.

ECT: scary, but sometimes I think rationally that maybe it could help. To cause a short-circuit in the brain, generating a new circuit for the electrical impulses to travel to the nuclei in the brain. Reroute the info and the processing. But it is just a theory. We stopped using it once in my country but we started it again in a specialized centre under strict medical and legal conditions. Sorry to hear it didn't work for you.
And b/c curiosity killed the MAUS. I would like some more info about what changed for you, what got worse or better after your ECT. How many times did you try it? Don't answer if you don't want to. There aren't many patients in my country I can ask about it. Probably none :-)

Wish you well
ps I copied the moose picture from your uncle very funny