Thanks for the kind words, Anthony. I appriciate them. And I appriciate this forum and the feed-back that can be had here. So, I want to ask a question.

During those times when a sufferer of PTSD is acting out, yelling or being destructive, what is going through your mind? I know that Kim will tell me she doesn't know why she does some of the things she does, that she doesn't feel in control. It's not that she blacks out and does something destructive, she know's she's doing it, but doesn't know why, and can't control it.

I guess what I would like to know is, when acting out, are you looking at the spouse and seeing the original offender? Or is it more a, "I want you to hurt and suffer the same way I am!" type of thing? And during a destructive phase, when items are being broken, is there no feeling of consequences of your actions? If an item of significant worth is being destroyed, does it cross your mind that there will be financial reprecussions (the cost of repair/replacement) due to your actions? I can't comprehend how a normally rational person can loose sight of their basic right-vs-wrong concepts for a short period of time.

Anthony, I'm not saying you fit any of the above. I am talking in generalizations, and hope that someone will be able to shed some insight into this for me.

Thanks for listening. I am really looking forward to responses to this one.

Warren