OK I don't normally write these so forgive

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Another, day I grow awake,
visions running through my head so real,
I wonder do i deserve to wake, or am I just another fake.,
A shadow figures, my innocence they take.

The years go by , the mind forgets,
until a trauma. opens the gate,
am I another victim in this game, the memory begins to set,
and feelings surface of regret, that quickly turn to hate.

Just take a breath, or write it down,
as if this reverses the traumas that have already occurred
when really all I want is a hole in the ground,
yet I know that reaction is just by gut and is very absurd

Someday my silence will be broke, your hold no longer tight
and you will take responsibility for all those things you've done
I wish that you will feel my pain, and realize the demons that I face each night,
till then all i can do is soldier on , put up with pain and plight

Someday I will awaken, and feel no longer fear,
I walk the streets with head held high, with no shame
and maybe when that day occurs I Will see the innocent girl looking back at me in the mirror,
one day even though I know you deserve it I'll erase you from my brain

so hold your loved ones Nice and tight,
tell them that you love the so
cause the day may come when you cannot, so love with all your might
and when the time comes, make sure they knowhow you love them so.