Walking The Edge

Many have done this time after time,
Put on the happy face lean to the right
when the rage battles on inside, so that when asked you can say Fine,
but we all know that to the left is our greatest battle onward the fight.

Many have said the forbidden word, looking for a quick fix,
some have attempted others successful,
but never to be mentioned with in company the results are mixed,
shorten a life , take away there potential.

Then there is the other side of it all,
fight for it , talk it out , take meds ,fight , fight , fight
some are so good at staying this side happy go lucky avoiding the fall,
others struggle every step of the way to talk to us and get our history our lips are sealed tight.
then there are those who have fought and won they stand Tall.

Yes I am jealous as I walk the edge,
happy on one day and falling the next
one thing I know that I have seen clear a commitment is required for happiness i pledge,
one that I can't show the importance of in this text

I have constant pain, its most distracting,
on top of PTSD symptoms I scream its not fair
until I learn a way to control, this pain I'll keep reacting,
like a knife in the heart the pain it justs tears.

That is the way that I walk the edge, trying to stay upright,
traumas, memories, flashbacks, and nightmares lean to the dark
happiness peace calm and friendship and dealing with it a beautiful site,
so happiness, peace and goodness is nice , but I still lean to the Dark as I have been marked.