Thanks for the encouragement bec. I'm aware that the going will get harder before it will get better. I had to do a lot of self-healing from some shocks in my own life some years ago and I've really only just come out of that recently. I see it as a spiral. You have some good days but then you think you've gone back to the same bad place (in your mind/emotions) but while it has all the same feelings they are just a little bit less aweful than last time.

Does that make sense?

But the psychologist also thinks that Heath has something really aweful repressed and while that works it's way out I think my situation as his carer is going to get harder. It certainly seems to be hard on him at the moment as he's sad all time and drinking more. On the bright side though, we are communicating a lot better now and he really does see that this is all about wanting the best for him. There was a part of him that was very cynical about it all for a very long time. It's nice to finally be really believed.