Yes I have been absent a long time, I was having such a hard time I had to just GO AWAY from all support groups. I was triggering so bad over the past few months it was VERY VERY BAD! I had so many legal battles to fight, the deposition for the lawsuit, the psych eval for the state level of disablility. That actually was not as bad as I thought, the psychologist was very nice, I was very suspicious of that but really he was trying to help me answer the questions to my benefit. My mom went with me to that and she has nothing wrong with her LOL, and she said he was genuine and not as he told us when we got there, THE ENEMY! The depo for my car accident was HORRIABLE, my doc warned me to be prepared for how bad it would get but I wasn't. I have had major set backs since then but I am confindent things will get back on track. I have not had time to read the new posts or catch up with everything and I am not sure I can read all the posts but I just want to send out good thoughts to everyone. I hope you are all doing your best and hanging tough, I am trying to get back to that place again. My RSD is really giving me a hard time the pain levels have been very INTENSE, so that is the other monkey I have on my back but that too will level itself. I almost embrace my PTSD as a good thing sometimes because the RSD is so much worse. Well everyone you take care, and hopefully I can get back into the swing of posting.