Hiya. I'm new to this forum. Browsed around to see if ti's what I need, and since there aren't any other PTSD sites that have the same amount of info, I'd venture a guess that it is.

I have PTSD, and after reviewing professional publications regarding PTSD and Complex PTSD I would say I have been dealing with it for over 30 years.

I have a wide assortment of abuses I have faced, and right now facing prison. Because of all of this, in this thread I'm expounding primarily on the abuse related to my impairment (I cannot go into too much detail for now), so I'll try to be brief-
I have been
Raped
assaulted
my home burned to the ground
fired
evicted
kicked out of college
falsely charged
falsely arrested
kidnapped
drugged up by the doctors using the wrong drugs
and at least one case of attempted murder.

I have been refused housing, empolyment and schooling because of both my impairment and my PTSD.

Right now I am facing upto 9 years in prison becausea man broke into my home and threatened me for money. The only way I got him to leave was one step short of shooting him.

I have no right to privacy, nor to self-defense, I have no right to my own religion, and has been proven repeatedly in the past if anyone what money from me they can literally do anything they want to me to get it.

I cannot hold a full time job because of my PTSD, I cannot sleep, I cannot be awake, nearly every minute of my life is ull of nightmares, daymares and literally, nothing but terror to the point that I have grown accustomed to it.

When I was arrested, I actually felt more comfortable going to jail than being in my home. Because in jail if anyone does anything to me, they get locked up in solitary. I have a hard time beleiving that I actually felt safer in jail. But it's true.

Right now filled with a wide assortment of feelings and emotions, to the point they are all literally canceling each other out. So I can't add much more to it than that.

But I am tired of living nothing but terror. I just want a peaceful life.