I am a polar opposite on so many levels to what I was. Some of it drove my husband nuts and some of it was why he fell for me. Some of it still remains but on a much lower level. I was abusive at times when it was not known what was wrong with me. I was absolutely horrible at times attitude wise and general treatment. Sometimes my temper gets the best of me still if my schedule does a sudden shift or something is unexpected (not abusive as I try to separate myself to cool off). So obviously I am still in healing. He is dealing with me coming out of relapse. I have as a result to meds and depression gained a lot of weight.

The relationship is stronger than it ever was now besides that. He has been through hell and back and he knows it can happen again. But he has made me very confident we can weather any storm now.

He got close to leaving before I was diagnosed and shit really hit he fan. But he stuck it out and he leaves not a shred of doubt in my mind how much he loves me and we will always be together. It feels like he has fallen in love with the new me.

How can I not be in love with someone who has been strong by my side through this and bend over backwards for me to function?

It takes someone willing to work at getting better and a truly special soul to stick it out through the worst as the treatment the partner normally gets is not warranted or should be expected to cope with. Good souls and true love can make it work. No doubt in my mind, as long as the PTSDer is working on healing as like I said my relationship almost ended before I was diagnosed and we knew what was going on and how to treat.

It was hard in the worst of it but we are happy. We now have laughs, cuddles, and pounce on each other to tickle the other, tease... We have moments we act like kids again. Far from miserable. You kind of fall in love again once healing starts.