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To begin with, I probably have to dump my latest therapist, this therapist just doesn't seem to connect with me. Changing Therapists always makes me feel down.
This post probably won't make much sense. I saw a news item that left me wide eyed and stunned today. Oh jeez.
I was probably slow to get this news bulletin. c'est la vie.
Recently, a U.S. college student stood by a crowded sports stadium. he had a bomb- which exploded and killed him. I'm really at a loss of how to work out that news. Sort of makes you want to just drop your car keys on the ground- and just stand there and stare at them for the next five days.

What happenedwith him? Didnt he get the news I got as a kid? playing with a small caliber bullet can blow 3 of my fingers off. wasn't he ever told don't play with bullets, or gunpowder or other exposives? His reasons for having a bomb or having near a large building are gone, so his motives are also a mystery.

Was he unhappy? was he trying to hurt himself or someone else? I once saw an airshow on tv. one of the acts was about 4 military helicopters dropping firework-like bombs that made explosions about 4 feet high. It was one of the most scary things I've ever seen. Was he trying to hurt a crowd? Was he after fame or wanted to beat up a lot of people? Please everyone, find non-violent and non-destructive ways of dealing with: anger, sadness or other types of unhappiness. That's probably jerky of me to say I know. I just dont know what else to say. I really don't know. How did that situation go wrong? how did he get the weapon? why didn't he get the message that civilians are never to go near bombs or bomb parts? Why do I feel that there had to be a way to get to him to help him before things went wrong for him? Man. I don't know. I really don't know.

Please hug a friend or someone you love guys,

Have a Good Day, Hugs from me,

Rob