Thank you for your advice.
I'm not sure what I'm gonna do about our relationship. One minute I want it to end and then I think that I'm making a mistake...

I''m not sure if I can really make any judgment calls right now. I have a doctor appointment on Monday. I'm gonna run all of this by her and see if she thinks I am headed in the right direction with regards to my health. Because the only thing that I am sure about is that I need to get my depression under some kind of control.

For the time being I'm going to tell my BF that I need some space for a couple of weeks to sort myself out. If he can't wait then that's that. But I'm simply too depressed and confused right now to make a decision and know that it's right. But if I'm force to I will follow my gut and right now it's telling me that this has become an unhealthy relationship. Mostly due to me but partly due to him as well.

All I want at this point is to feel like me again. To know that I have become the person that I was ment to be-you know?

Wish me luck

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