I can understand what your going through actually, in giving up your work... as I and most have been there when PTSD has been at its worst. Its not necessarily the end though, as many with PTSD can do some work... maybe something from home, online business, web design, programming, etc etc... many of the best in those industries work from home, which makes handling PTSD a much better aspect of your day to day life.
Saying that though, many also still work a normal job... I guess the only problem I have noticed with that though, is they tend not to be able to handle a job and relationship at the same time... it seems to be one or the other! I would like to see someone succeed at both those with PTSD actually... that would be quite refreshing.
Is it possible that you go back to the type of work that interested you the most, on a part-time basis... ie. one or two hours a day, and try and slowly ease yourself back into it. Jobs cater for injuries, as the facts from studies have shown, when injured, get back to work, get your mind going to keep away from depression. Some take that to the extreme though, and bury themselves in work to bury many other problems, which isn't really healthy either.
There are lots of solutions to your problem Liz, and counsellors / physicians near you could certainly help with "return to work" type programs and so forth. Only you will actually know whether your ready for it or not... and if not, then I would say DON'T try it. If that is the case, try something for yourself, ie. online business model... you have pulled yourself so far through you life already, it shows your one very willing, determined person to succeed. That is 90% of the battle already fought for you. Now you just need to fill in that extra 10%, and get something going to keep your mind amused and away from depression.
Believe it or not, from what your writing here, your coming across as a very strong, determined person who doesn't accept failure easy... so don't let it get you now with PTSD. If most with PTSD had your initial upbringing that taught you how to succeed even if the odds are against you, you are a walking example that it can be done if you put your mind too it. Well done Liz... |