poem title- Jaded eyes.

There are many things I do that you don't have to in your life, emotionally healthy guy.

Can unlocked doors frighten you? someone might get in.

Do people taller than you seem scary?

How about people bigger than you?

Do you walk in a lit or dark parking lot with a key in your hand, In case you might be attacked?

Is the back seat of your car have a stranger hiding in it? ( pardon me , I have to go check my back seat now.)

Does the night frighten you? There are no fairy tale goblins or vampires out in the dark there, just REAL monsters-humans who might wait to attack you with clubs, with fists, with kicks, with knives, with other weapons too scary to mention.

If you want, come and find me curled up in fear sometime at my home when the real world and real violent and hideous people have gotten too much for me.

Spend about 20 minutes asking me about PTSD and fear and fright. I'll tell you nearly anything-but I warn you YOU MIGHT NOT LIKE THE FRIGHTENING THINGS YOU HEAR.

For Example, my country's Justice department says that 1 out of every 3 women that I know will at one time be attacked...........

I hang my head in fear and sorrow. Oh damn.



Please, could you stay outside my door until I fall alseep tonight? Suddenly I don't feel safe now.

They say I am "bitter" or "jaded" about my problems or that " I just won't get over them". Them being my problems.

Anytime, please come and talk to me for 20 minutes about my issues. You'll hear most of the real me. I ride an old and completely scary streetcar called "the crazy train". But it's the train I ride that is crazy. I am not crazy. I'm just recovering from a bunch of undeserved attacks.

Take 20 minutes and talk to me about fear and the things that can harm you and me in the world. You will come away understanding me a lot better. And maybe you'll do the right thing, And give me the freedom to solve my part of the twisted and violent and dangerous world on my own. Everyone is owed that freedom. If you feel like it, come talk to me about it, "emotionally healthy guy". But talking to me about it might partly shatter your idea, your idea that you live in a perfect and ideal and totally safe world.What do you think about it. Hmm? You still here?............

Wanna Talk?


Rob T.