Hi Maja,

Welcome. I can relate to a lot of what you say...occasional bouts of nightmares, a history of abuse in my childhood and adolescence, flashbacks. Dissociation is a big problem for me off and on. One of my challenges, too, is integrating my past into my present. I also feel very vulnerable to new abuses and traumas, even ones that don't affect me directly. Sometimes, I hear or read about things that bring back intrusive thoughts and memories of an incident I experienced and thought I had dealt with. But, I'm finding out that the nature of this ptsd beast is such that sometimes that happens, and we find that we have still more muck to go through in our healing. And, also, I think confusion is part of the nature of this ptsd beast we're fighting.

Anyway, I think you'll find a supportive environment here. I know I have.

Hodge