So sorry about your father WarHippy. And sorry about your cancer too. I couldn't completely follow what you're saying, but are you receiving treatment for your cancer right now? I really hope you are. I don't know a lot about prostate cancer but I do believe that you should fight any kind of cancer with all you've got. I fought hard, and I'm in early remission now. Mind you I did have a good prognosis to begin with, but attitude is really important, it was crucial for me.

You're about the same age as my Uncle Jim here on the forum. He joined the military at 16 and he wanted to go to Vietnam too, he says at the time he was young and stupid and wanted to be a hero. Luckily though our country wasn't involved in the Vietnam War, so he didn't go. Who knows, he might have PTSD if he had gone, so I'm terribly glad he didn't!!

Shock treatments, yeah I had a series of those about 3 years ago, but they didn't help me at all. Just made lose bits of my short term memory. And the headaches were terrible of course.

I don't know that I really have a unique opinion on cancer, I just know that you need to fight and have a good attitude, and endure the treatments and tests although it is hard, because in most cases it's definitely worth it in the end. Did you know that the statistics on cancer are actually very good, most people survive, it's only a small percentage, and mostly the very old and the very young, who end up dying from cancer these days. Most forms of cancer are quite treatable. I never realized that until I started having treatments, but modern medicine has come a long way and I think it's important to not think of cancer as the death sentence it was even 20 or 30 years ago.