Hi Mark I have found that my corner was turned one day when watching TV. I had just come down from from an outburst complete with panic attack and the waves of an emotional flashback. The news was on, and there had been a tornado in the south. Half the people were experienceing the greif of there losses with the woa is me's as victims. I then noticed the other half were going around picking up the pieces and talking about starting life over as survivors. I decided that day that I wanted to be a survivor. I still am quite symtommatic but the day I decided I wanted to be a survivor my life chnged forever. I can still have my night terrors, outbursts and all the other little pleasantries. When it is the darkest I grab the fact that I am a survivor and hold on real tight!