Tiana, Through almost 10 years of dealing with this mess I feel I have learned one big lesson. Now I don't know if you are a religious person or if you have a higher power in yhour life, but I do. I firmly believe that people, places and things are placed in my path for a reason. To support when needed. To teach when unknowing. What ever I need at the time. Don't try to figure out this part of life now. Use the tools, whatever they may be, that you have now. They are there for a reason. Relax and allow the process to work-- I promise in time it will. You will deal with your deamons. They don't completely go away but you do gain control of them and life will smile I hope I help you HERC