veiled, glad you ranted. Your nightmares sound exhausting and very frightening. I haven't been able to sleep tonight likely due to all the articles I've recently read about military men and women coming back from iraq in terrible psych. conditions and committing crimes and such. Also, I watched National Geogr. 'Hurricane Katrina' today and throughout I could hear myself thinking, oh' I can handle watching this, I'll be alright. No, I most definately wasn't, oh what an error in judgement that was. Felt feelings of nagging guilt, powerlessness and impotence throughout my day following. Me feeling this way is not suppose to make sense to anyone, but I understand why perhaps I do and it's just the way I think sometimes.

Your husband is awesome, veiled. You know it! I do hope the anxiety attack soon passes for you, you will get through it. I hope you know it! Ya' and I think I'd do the same and stay at inlaws if possible, when possible. It could make for a very nice time/visit and it makes a whole heck of a lot of sense to me. I think I read somewhere, that your m-i-l is really sweet. I hope I did. did I?

And, I've done the same at times with my children and the tv, always makes me feel crummy, it always has. It hasn't happened to terribly often and if I could've found a way around it I would've. And as far June's anniversary coming up, surrender and just know that whatever it may bring, you'll get through it with our support and your other supports. We have faith in you veiled, want the best for you and I personally don't want the anticipated anxiety of upcoming June to rob you this May. Hang in there veiled.

Always wishing you well.

Hope