I can't help but feel that way. I have this need to know if anyone else has survived an ordeal like mine. Being degraded by the police, I can't help but feel if i were one of the ones found dead, like Carlie Brucia, I would not have been blamed for what happened to me. To this day I feel everything I say is subject to scrutinization. I don't feel credible, no matter how truthful I am. For years I've wondered how many there might be like me.
I read about the dangers of looking for like sufferers and making my PTSD somehow "special" and all, and how all experiences are different, but I can't stop wondering if there are others like me.