congrat nugget that is huge its fantastic
remember little steps...i have been where you are..acknowledge its real hard yakka and i mean hard yakka but hang in...i don't have the valium but the xanax sitting in my cupboard and i count the days in my journal...breathing techniques do you use them....
and your wife sounds so supportive...which is an added bonus.
and remember lapse doesn't mean a relapse..and all lapses mean improvement to some degree...
keep strong again congrat