Ok, so there is no way that I won't contact him. I have waited for years and I will not let the opportunity pass by. I just don't know how to go about it exactly. With as little drama as possible I guess.

In truth I am not completely certain what his dad's reaction might be. We were both pretty screwed up back then and things were pretty ugly at the end. At the same time I can't picture him not expecting this on some level. He knows me too well and he knows what J means to me.

I am also worried that I may be a huge dissapointment. I am sort of screwed up at the moment. I am working on it but life is still a challange. And from his profile J is not quite the person I expected him to be, although when I think about it I suppose it is not as surprising as I first thought.

Anyway I am thinking about something like this.

J,

If you ever feel like talking get back to me at .............@yahoo.com

Love,

I feel like something simple like that is most appropriate because it is a public space after all and also I do not want to overwhelm him with a bunch of emotional crap all at once. I want him to feel like it is ok to say no if he wants.