Thanks so much for your words of wisdom. I was able to keep from cutting, which helps a lot: no bright red reminder of my loss of control. I was up all night last night, and instead of engaging in destructive behavior, I came to this forum and read a bit. It really helped!
I'm so happy I found this forum. I look forward to being able to use it as a safe place to find friends who understand, as well as a tool for betterment.