I just read a few of your posts on this thread....My heart goes out to you.....I was emotionally..physically..and sexually by my father for about 18 years...so I can understand quite a lot about your feelings at this time...Of course my mother did nothing to protect me...The flashbacks can be a bitch!! There is a lot of information on this site that explains stuff that goes on with being traumatized and ending up with PTSD....Please check the information section out....I hope you have a better day today!! Do something nice for your self each day...something that you really enjoy!!! KEEPING THE PEACE