I haven't felt like that with the forum, but when I first did group therapy - I often had panic attacks before anything even started. I think part of it for me was knowing that I was going to a place to talk about things that would probably trigger me, and that I was going to have a place I could talk about what happened to me - which meant I was going to have to allow myself to remember what happened.

I enjoyed the group therapy, and I knew I was healing and getting to know people who were going through similar experiences with their healing but it didn't mean I wasn't still having anxiety about it. I found that some of the things I did around the group made things better - like talking about animals, or after group walking with one of the other people to the bus stop and always seeing a lady walking her dogs - it was the things that were mundane that made it easier, and after a while I found that I could control it and be less likely to have a full blown panic attack.

I'm not sure if this helps - but maybe setting aside a certain period of time to go on the forum may help. Along with having some rewards set up for yourself for afterwards - a bubble bath, a glass of wine, a good book, dessert of some sort. Something that you can positively associate with working on your healing.