I just want to say I feel for you. I have somewhat been emotionally shut down when it comes to certain aspects and certain emotions for as long as I can remember. I fear it all coming at me at once, which makes me more scared to feel, and more determined not to let anything strong overtake me.

Trust issues are also not new to me. But, as wisely pointed out, there comes a point where you just gotta let someone take over for a little. The alternative sounds more drastic than it needs to be.

Having said that, working can sometimes help. Sometimes it can drastically hinder. Pressure on yourself is going to near guarantee failure. Take it a day at a time... you will soon know if it is not going the right for your health....

Good luck, with work and also with the therapy.