He replied. Just a short note but he said it was good to hear from me, he just did not know what to say. He also asked about his baby sister which is another painful subject (I allowed my three youngest girls to be adopted by their foster family in MI). If I thought the first message was hard... but I made it through it and am waiting on a reply.

I did not give him all of the details. Just explained that it was a serious DV situation and that he could ask questions if he wanted. That I would not lie to him. Felt like if it came all at once it would be too much.

I said that I was sorry I was not strong enough to be the mom he and his sister's deserved. That I hoped that one day he could forgive me.

I also asked him to relay a message to his dad. That I had stopped being angry a long time ago. That we were stupid kids who made stupid mistakes. That he gave him the opportunity to be a real boy, to have a real family and that I was grateful that Jon's eyes never saw....

And I asked that he tell his "Mom" that I said thank you.

I did ask some basic questions such as how are you, how's dad etc... and I asked him to send a picture.