Hope,

I so much feel your struggles and understand. I've been a bit on the edge myself this past week being in the hospital, but know this, you are a very sweet and special person and what you are going through is not your fault. Just speaking from experience I know that is hard to believe, but it is completely the truth! I have no awesome advise but I do have lots of love! Know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Marilyn