Hello Cookie. Welcome aboard. You are not alone in this struggle. I, too, have complex ptsd/depression/anxiety...blah, blah, blah...from childhood abuse. I'm afraid that complex doesn't even begin to describe the way we feel sometimes. I was lucky in some ways...that my therapist just had me talk. I didn't feel pressured to say anything I didn't want to. I wasted a lot of sessions this way, but eventually things started to turn around. Then, a year later, I switched therapists to one that was a bit more agressive, but I was ready for that. And eventually, very slowly, started to get better.

I am here to say, that it does get better. I think one of the worst symptoms of PTSD is the anxiety (a word for scared sh*tless), and that does ease up significantly after you work through the traumas a bit.

Work hard and learn to cope. You can do it cookie....

I like your name by the way...