Hi nacatt,

Welcome. Well, this is a good place to be to try to figure out what you need to do and get some support at the same time.

Sounds like it's rough for you at the moment. Anniversaries are never good for most either.

Medication I believe is a funny one - can relieve symptoms, but with PTSD, it is mainly a psychological problem needing dealing with psychologically. Medication can help, but I believe really there needs to be psychological help alongside it.

Also, PTSD sufferers often find counselling doesn't work to begin with. The counsellor may not be right for you, the approach may not be right for your specific issues, or you may not have continued because it got too intense. Often it can be one of those. I am 22 and I have had three or four therapists, on my fifth now, and used to be under both child and adult mental health teams (psychiatrists etc.). It is only now that I have gone to counselling specifically FOR the affects of PTSD, rather than all the secondary problems it gave me, but before this, none of them even suggested it might be PTSD related, apart from one who had PTSD herself.

Don't give up. There is a LOT of information here, and people are always around to give advice, suggestions and support.

I relate to always feeling scared, it's really miserable (understatement!). But this place has given me hope as I have seen people overcome things, and I hope that it will for you too.

See you around,

Lisa.